i miss september

a very late recap of last month

September felt like a strange month lived beneath a quiet looming shadow. A slow countdown was humming in the back of my mind and the days were starting to slip towards my wisdom tooth surgery (which is in a few hours as I’m writing this). The thought lingered like a ticking clock tugging gently at the edge of every moment. And because of that shadow I tried to fill the days with light, small joys and laughter while I felt I could. Somehow in the midst of all the dread, September became one of the most fulfilling months of the year.

🎶My Songs on Repeat -

Real House by Adrianne Lenker - this song made me cry multiple times this month. I also saw an edit with this song and Ellie Williams from The Last of Us which made me sob. This song is so fragile and intimate and I feel it so heavily.

Donut Stream by Adrianne Lenker- I have really been enjoying Adrianne Lenkers music so much recently. This songs themes really resonate with me, about the cruelty and dismay of the world and you just have to keep living and experiencing, cherishing moments with people before they eventually leave. One of my new favourites by her.

Sienna by Marias - I LOVE how this song sounds. My go to song for studying honestly (can you tell i love sad music)

Pool by Samia - once again just another really sad song.

Do I Ever Cross Your Mind? by Sombr- I’m not really a huge Sombr listener but this track is beautiful and makes me just stare at the wall and think deep things.

📽️Things I’ve Seen:

The Long Walk - I was craving a cinema experience so badly so I went and watched this movie because i love The Hunger Games (same directors). My boyfriend who never cries, sobbed at this movie. Truly such a good movie. I want to read the book but I fear it won’t be as good when I know what happens.

Uptown Girls - This was a big comfort background movie for me!

John Porctor is the Villain - I found a link to watch the theatre show of this because im a massive fan of Sadie Sink and this absolutely blew me away. That ending sequence sticks in my brain to this day (I also love Lorde too so that’s a bonus) It made me remember how much I love broadway and theatre !! Returning to my roots for real

📚Books I read:

The Eyes of Gaza- A book everyone should read especially if you are uneducated in what’s happening in Palestine at the moment.

28 Questions - mixed feelings. some relatable lines, good quotes and characterisation at times but mostly felt drawn out and underwhelming at points? I enjoyed the first and last sections but felt a bit lost in the middle

🪻Things I did this month:

My boyfriend and I had his birthday and our 2 years back to back. For this birthday we went full chaotic mode at Timezone where we scored so much prizes!! And then the very next day we basically spent the whole day eating food and spending time with his family which was great<3

I went to the op shops bins twice in once month. The first trip was disappointing, mainly because I was just drained and tired and didn’t have the effort to dig right into the bottom. But the second time I went with my friend and i found some amazing finds including a black rose patterned corset!!

We finished the first draft of my film that I’m directing which was exciting to see it on the big screen right in the middle of the city! The feedback we got was positive too while I was expecting a lot of harsh feedback. I’m excited see where it goes.

I went to the araluen botanic gardens last week. At first I had low expectations because everyone talks about how good it is so I thought I was going to get disappointed but WOW it was beautiful and so big. It was so nourishing for my brain to be out in the sunshine for a full day! ☀️

The day after me and some friends went to the Medieval Festival !! It was so so much fun and so cool to see people in their costumes. Such a pretty day.

Reflection:

Well I started writing this post on the 4th of October (a few hours before my surgery) and now here I am on the 16th of October finishing it off… I can say my wisdom tooth surgery went alright, it was hard and recovery was very painful but I’m feeling mostly normal! But no complications yet hahah

September was a beautiful month, I laughed, cried, protested and celebrated and mostly lived in fear most of the time but now writing this after surgery I feel so grateful this chapter of my life is over and I never have to get my wisdom teeth out again. Life doesn’t stop no matter what you have going on so I’m glad I made the most of eating crunchy food while I could hahah

Thank you so much for reading and for all the support I’ve received during my recovery. It truly means the world, treat yourself for me<3

OH and if you haven’t join my bookclub and you want to here is the link- https://discord.gg/NpUDSxX6Tf !! 📚